Well, I haven't been updating like I used to. I just don't seem to have it in me anymore. I have lots of thoughts and ideas running through this tiny little brain of mine but I just can't seem to put any of them into motion. It's all very tiring believe it or not. It's like I have so much to talk about that can't be put into words. Then again for those who know me, I have never been one to talk about feelings. I just keep things all bottled up until one day I explode. I have so much to say but unfortunately I just can't.
Things at home are well...as you may have guessed, not so great. That haven't been for a long time or if ever. I ask myself everyday how the hell I got myself here. It certainly did not happen over night. I am unhappy, miserable and just plain over it all. I have been. I'm sick of being treated the way I have been treated. I'm sick of being talked to like I am an idiot. I'm sick of not being able to make the littlest of decisions with out "checking in" first. I get no respect and am completely unappreciated. I am not looking for sympathy because I am the only one who can fix it. For those of you who are saying "just leave", it's easier said than done.
Work is going...good. I can't complain I guess. I look at work as an escape from the daily bull shit yet work as become part of my daily bull shit. It's all good though...I think. It's still not as bad as sitting home at night.

Labels: Daily Thoughts, Venting